Lindsay’s ex-security guard Lee Weaver, who claims he quit because she was
too dangerous to work for, revealed to the News of the World newspaper:

“I have looked after some of the wildest stars in Hollywood but have never seen
anyone as out of control as Lindsay. She had a total death wish and took
more drugs and drank more than anyone I’ve met.

“I lost count of the times I thought she was overdosing and had to carry her
out of parties. Every morning I’d breathe a sigh of relief she was still
alive.

“One night I looked at her wrists and hands and noticed they had bright red
wounds all over them. She broke down and told me, ‘I don’t belong on this
planet anymore.’ She said she cut herself because she didn’t think life was
worth living.”

Weaver – who has previously worked for Brad Pitt, Pamela Anderson and Robert
Downey Jnr – also claims Lindsay, 20, joined Nicole Richie for cocaine
binges.

He said: “One night Lindsay and Nicole laid a mirror taken from the bedroom
and on a coffee table and emptied a mountain of coke onto it. They went at
the stuff with straws hoovering it all up. I tried to tell Lindsay to stop.
After ten hours, I had to carry her to the car.”

Weaver also claims Lindsay experimented with lesbian sex, using women for
“thrills”.

He added: “I lost count of the women she took back to her hotel room from
clubs. She used girls for thrills. I even saw her try to grope Mariah Carey’s butt and boobs one night.

“At the start she seemed such a fun-loving angelic girl, but under the
influence of drugs she was psychotic.”
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